Today is mothers day. Being a mother is probably one of the hardest jobs in the world. A mother has to wear many hats. Maid, caregiver, chef, taxi driver, lover, boo boo kisser. It frankly can be exhausting. For me, although I love every minute of being a mother, being a mother has been especially hard and difficult for me. I have been on my own since i was six months pregnant with my son. Long story of the short of it, i left an extremely abusive relationship and never looked back. Do i regret that choice of taking the hard road? NOT one bit. It has meant peace, tranquility and a safe home for my child. But it hasnt been an easy one. Infancy was partyicularly hard, especially as I was the only one waking and feeding the baby. I sometimes went over 24 hours without sleep, let alone a break. Add post partum depression, and it was not a piece of cake. There have been many unique struggles that I have faced as the one and only parent. Job hunting has been a particularly sticky issue. Because i only have reliable day care from Mon-Fri, it has been difficult for me to find work that will accomadate my day care issues. Most people dont care, understand, or care to understand that I dont have a husband, or father to help, I also dont have inlaws to help out as well. And with my immiediate family busy and not always avaialble, being available nights and weekends is especially trying. But I keep pushing through and I keep my head up and keep telling myself that things will work out and get better. I think alot of mothers start off fit and faboulous and through out the stresses and daily demands of raising their children, we start to lose ourselves. Maybe we start off not wearing make up as much, are clothes become more comfortable (and less stylish) as we focus on our children, and I think for many, we start to put on the weight and become unhealthy. With busy lives, such as managing work, child sports and dance class, we become quick to pull out that box of frozen pizza from the fridge, or grab take out to feed our family on the go. Between our careers, taking care of the children's needs, keeping up our homes, and what ever other busy things we keep ourselves overwhelmed with, some of us even start to pack on the pounds. And before we know it, we look in the mirror and we've becomea totally different person than we once were. But I think its important that we try to keep ourselves up. Not for anyone but for ourselves. I lost myself too. I gained weight, lost any sense of fashion and lost any interest in myself.Thats why I have been on this journey to a new and improved me. To find my old self again. To feel good about myself again. To look good again. But it really isnt just about me, its really about my son. As a single mother I need to be healthy and change my habits. I am his only parent and as his mother, I owe it to him to be the happiest, and healthiest I can be. And with change comes great things. As I continue on my journey to lose the weight and become healthy, I have become happier. I dress up now, I do my hair, my makeup, and I wear heels sometimes too!!! And my little guy sees the positive changes in me. I am setting an example of what living healthy and happy can do for him. So for mother's day I think the biggest gift is to give back to us, so that we can be the best mothers we can be. Lets continue to have more mothers decide to get fit and healthy and set an example of healthy living for our children.
Happy mothers day everyone!!!!!!!
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